I blinked, and another year happened.
Ten years ago, I traveled to Asia for the first time and had so many adventures in such a short time that those 3 weeks felt like 3 months. Tonight is the ninth full moon to rise over our mountains since the night Tulsi flew into the world. It’s all happened at light speed and yet I’ve breathed so much slower these months, soaking up every giggle and snuggle; every monumental milestone and EVERY single “Mama!” So many new moments as a mama, that I swear, in the moment, feel like they are tatooed into my being and perfectly etched into my memory. I know details will fade in time, but the essence IS changing me. I am me, different from yesterday. She’s the best thing that’s every happened to me. Patrick says the same thing.
One thing I love about being a mama is the continual change. She keeps me on my toes, alert and dancing. She’s such an appreciate soul, too, clapping at my every effort to amuse, support, and even console. And I LOVE that I get to know her better than anyone; that she looks to me to find creative solutions to each new phase of our learning and growing together.
Looking back, I’m pretty amazed, too, at everything I’ve somehow been able to accomplish during this time. Those first four months were tough! FULL ON. You just don’t know until you know. No extra time and no energy even if there was. Even though I was totally blissed out, I remember wondering, how will I ever have time for my art again? But we’ve since found our rhythm, and sleep and art and yoga have slowly found spaces in my days again. My next kid’s book is (just about) finished, and I started writing new stories. It’s fun wondering what book will come next. I haven’t made any ‘personal art’, as in just-for-me-art (except in my head), but I’ve been lucky that my books and some jobs have felt like it. Patrick and I are working every day now on finishing our book Chai Pilgrimage. We are giddy about seeing it come more to life, and excited about our adventure in self-publishing. I also recently began collaborating with two women on a “dream project” that we will pitch to publishers in the new year. I look forward to sharing several illustration projects from 2009 as soon as they are released, too. I may even be partnering with a new agent for my licensing work — fingers and toes crossed – someone I’ve worked with and respect a ton! I hope it works out, as I think it will be a great relationship.
So much I am looking forward to in this next year!
And blogging. Yeah…I hope to do more! It’s pretty awesome, realizing the beautiful relationships I have with friends in my life who I met solely thru this creative blog community. Thanks everyone, for playing here and on your blogs.
I hope you are all enjoying the STUNNING + Magnificently powerful FULL blue moon tonight! May its magic bring you whatever it is you need. I’m going outside to soak and let go into the new year. Peace and blessings. And Happy New Year!
January 1st, 2010 at 1:36 am
Happy New Year! It sounds like you have a great one planned!
January 1st, 2010 at 2:02 am
isn’t motherhood amazing – it stretches and expands us in ways we never dreamed possible, it fills our hearts with more love than we have ever known, it humbles us to our very core, and it constantly, constantly teaches. it is quite the journey. i wish you all the very best in 2010 and hope it holds much promise for you, jenny. sending blessings to you & your family. :) buon anno! warmly, s
January 1st, 2010 at 1:35 pm
What a beautiful blue moon it was last night. I stepped out in the bitter cold to appreciate and be thankful.
Your plans for the new year sound like enough for the next two or three! Breathe, relax and chase that crawling Tulsi.
Blessings to you all and a big hug to boot.
xo, Kelly
January 1st, 2010 at 4:21 pm
Happy new year, my dear! I am excited to see what all you have up your sleeve for this year. :)
xoxo
January 2nd, 2010 at 4:26 am
Happy New Year to you and your family!! Wow, It sounds like another exciting upcoming year and as full as the blue moon!
January 2nd, 2010 at 1:34 pm
Happy new year Jenny! It’s so great to hear your experience with motherhood.
Jeff and I took the most magical snowy hike today, on the same park path where we took our wedding pictures. I felt like we were in an elf forest…it was perfect. It was a wonderful way to kick off the new year and I think we will make a new year’s hike a tradition from now on.
Thanks for reminding us about the blue moon. Maybe it will peek out from the clouds long enough for me to spot it…I’m sure it will look heavenly and bright with all of the snow.
p.s. Thank you for your “grandma” note a while back.
January 2nd, 2010 at 1:36 pm
Oops, just looked at the date of your post. Oh well, guess I missed the blue moon. But I had a happy night anyways, so that’s okay:)
January 4th, 2010 at 7:09 am
and lovely happy blue moon to you too, Jenny Sue!….
sounds like you have some exciting projects ahead, for sure!
January 5th, 2010 at 12:30 pm
Hey Mama, Patrick and Tulsi- what a year! And more to come. Blessing to have you in my life…
January 6th, 2010 at 5:16 pm
Motherhood is earthly sainthood. You have entered a wonderous sisterhood.
January 6th, 2010 at 8:29 pm
A happy new year to you three and happy 9-months to Tulsi! I am glad to read about your new projects and that you now have a new satisfactory day rythm!
And your words, as always, touch me.
January 7th, 2010 at 4:32 pm
i love that, Mom! hey, isn’t wifehood earthly sainthood, too? hmmm, with these two inductions, maybe i’ll have a golden ticket waiting for me at the pearly gates!! i love you! and i love being able to relate to you in the mama-way now, too…